I was recently at a wedding, and it was the first time, whilst being at this joyous occasion that I, myself was not overjoyed for the happy couple. Some things in the past just marred the whole event and as they said their vows I said a prayer. I usually believe that the people saying, 'till death us do part' , are happy and should be together. This time I wasn't completely convinced they were ready for this commitment. I have gone through so much in my life, seeing the things I have; the pills, drugs, attempted suicides, anger, rage. I still had this naive notion that life could be a happy and carefree and rose coloured thing, that there was something such as a happily ever after. I know the story doesn't end with those words, but I think what contributes to my naivety is that I have never had a serious relationship. I did however get to see some of the "real life" that was very close to disrupting my fairytale dreams, until I realised I wasn't witnessing the mistake of the decade. I saw forgiveness, compromise and hope. I think I get it now, there is no such thing as happiness, just the pursuit of it. Every person should have the right to go for it.
